is to do all the things in my life right now, which are pretty Great, without THINKING so MUCH about them. GAH.
it's odd. i believe truly and strongly that the one thing that separates us from animals is our ability to consider our actions (and their effects on other people), but i think my brain not only has gone Completely Haywire in that department, but is shooting itself in the proverbial foot, 'coz the other people in question just have to listen to this play-by-play of my selfish/selfless conflicting attempts at clarity.
even that sentence was Completely Unfathomable! I'm a NUTTER!